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29 September 2015 @ 11:57 pm
2015: The year of medical appointments  
No freaking lie.

I have never had to visit so many doctors for this many different reasons. And I do have a few more things that needs to be looked at/tended to, but frankly, I am so tired of sitting in waiting rooms and having to arrange for my entire day to go see one doctor.

This year began with me having some issues with down there. I have never had issues before. I use to be able to go in for my Pap Smear and get my birth control pill refills, and call it a year. It was so simple. The issues I had were multiple infections, at the same time, an abnormal pap smear, which resulted in me getting biopsies, and more infections going on.

I don't understand what can be happening because I keep things pretty clean (I have a detachable shower head for this reason, it's SO much more easier to clean and rinse down there). That alone has me feeling unwanted and like something is wrong with me that's undesirable by others.

Then, my nightmare has started over and I had some teeth issues. I was having some severe pain in my upper right portion. Anything I ate, it would start aching. Then, I would start chewing on my other side, just for that to feel sore from doing all the work, then issues started there. After I have been hounded to go see a dentist about it (I hate the dentist. I can go visit any other doctor and be pretty much okay with it, but I've had the WORST experiences with dentists!), I found out that I needed 3 deep cavity fillings. I can deal with that, I was expecting worse.

After I had the cavities tended to, things were feeling better and I can go along my merry way and just expect a cleaning the next time I go in. Unfortunately, that wasn't the case. My first problem tooth starting hurting me hardcore. It would knock me to tears it was aching so bad. I went back in, and apparently, it was too late to save that tooth, so I had to have a root canal. My FIFTH root canal! Thinking about how much the procedure costs alone, then there's the crowns and the other stuff that come with it, I was sick. But, my mouth was killing me, so I had to do it.

My most recent thing is that I accidentally knocked my head on the corner of my mantle while I was cleaning. I was getting one of Hazel's toys from the floor so I can start vacuuming, and I must have moved at some point, because when I got back up, my head slammed on the corner. I hit my head a lot on a lot of different surfaces, so I didn't think anything of it.

After a few days, I felt some nasty, thick pus coming from where I had hit my head. I took some pictures and sent them to Ben (we still kind of talk on a professional level) and he said that it looks like I had a cut to my head that got infected. Luckily, I had the antibiotics from the dentist leftover from the root canal and I kept it clean by using an eye dropper with saline water over the wound. It hurt so bad for a few weeks.

I'm now finishing up with that recovery. The infection is gone, and it's now just a small scab. But today, I realized that there's a bald spot on my head of where it was!! It's just kind of getting me down. I'm reading around online of the odds of the hair growing back, and there are so many different stories about it. Ben says that thinks my hair will grow back. I don't know what to think. I just know that bald spot is really bugging me, I am such a perfectionist about my hair.

Luckily, it's in the back and is covered by my other hair, but I know it's there. I can feel my scalp every time my fingers go back there.

This year is just really getting to me in some ways. I am so thankful right now that school is going well. I got a 100% on my first test in the easier Accounting course, and I got a 92% on the harder Accounting course. I'm already doing better here than I was at LSU, I really hope I can keep it up. The school expenses are piling up, I can NOT fail and drop this. I just can't.