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22 December 2015 @ 11:54 am
Christmas is coming?  
Since the company is basically insisting on it, I am seeing a counselor about the robbery. It’s only about 3 sessions, once a week, so I am trying to comply with it. I have the 2nd appointment tonight. Appointments like this aren’t so bad, but I keep thinking of all the things I could be accomplishing instead of having to sit there and attempt to evaluate some emotions that I am not feeling.

There have been a lot of times people tell me that they don’t know how I reacted the way I did. They tell me of their predictions that they would probably freak, fight back, get pissed, etc. It’s real easy to say what you could be doing once you’re in that position, but I’m glad I reacted as calmly as I did through all of it.

Don’t get me wrong, I was a little skittish for about a couple days after it happened. I had trouble sleeping, and kept thinking of how things could’ve been worse and what I could’ve done better. I was scared to walk my dog at night by myself, so I would call friends to stay on the line with me until I was done and back into the apartment. That didn’t last too long, and I would like to take a moment to thank those friends that were patient enough to humor my skittish self. But other than those, I haven’t really felt too much about it.

Right after the robbery happened, I guess I didn’t have time to really harp on it. It was around finals, and I was way too focused on completing these courses the best way I could. I finished both courses with an A, so I really cannot complain about that. I’m grateful I managed to pull those off while keeping up with 2 jobs.

Christmas is coming at a fast pace, and technically, I am almost ready for it. Emotionally, not so much. I am trying my hardest to get into the mood. I remember everyone diving full on into the holiday mood when Thanksgiving first passed; now that Christmas has been inching closer, it seems like people are losing that momentum and are no longer in the mood.